Today, I woke up around 3:30 a.m. with a surge of heat running through my body. I threw off my blanket, which happens to be an oversized wolf throw, and laid in my bed for several more minutes. I tried to fall back asleep, but the heat I felt coursing from the base of my spine also radiated to other parts of my body and wouldn’t go away. No matter how hard I tried to resist, or reposition, or sip water, or go back to sleep, nothing worked. She—Kundalini—or some other innate, but usually dormant energy inside my body was awake and ready to start her day. I stepped out of my bed, fully aware that today wouldn’t be a normal day for me. I couldn’t start by checking my emails, reading the news, or scrolling through my social media accounts. I knew I had a different reason for being awake; truly awake, and with a purpose, in which no physical action would suffice. I felt more self-aware and more in tune with my higher self than I have in a long time.
One a Day Tarot Reading
I pulled a single tarot card—Number XII—the Hanged Man, which represents surrender, a new perspective, waiting, sacrifice, and release. Then I studied the card, its various meanings, and its connections to other types of learning such as numerology, planetary influences, elemental influences, chakra healing, runic translations, I Ching translations, color influences, and crystal healing. All this knowledge, trapped inside a single tarot card meaning. The feeling of self-empowerment alone is breathtaking.
NOTE: If you don’t already have a tarot deck of your own, consider getting one. I use the Wizards Tarot, which comes in either English or Spanish translations. I love the artwork and the explanation of each card; however, the underlying story has a strange Harry Potter feel that I don’t find necessary or appreciate. Either way, choose a deck that you feel drawn to, hold it in your hand if possible, and connect with the words before beginning your journey.
One a Day Oracle Reading
I also pulled a single oracle card—Number 38—Heal the Ouch, from my favorite deck, The Map by Colette Baron-Reid. Each card comes with a quick, one-liner thought, plus a full explanation for me to decide how it applies to my life as a whole. The one-liner thought for Heal the Ouch is “Forgiveness is the healer of the soul.” And the card represents healing and helping others heal. This message resonated with me for many reasons, but also made me consider the old-time wisdom: Never go to Bed Angry because I did, and I think I felt some of the repercussions of my decision this morning.
Based on these two cards, I now have a feeling about why I woke up the way I did. But if anyone reading this post is more experienced in Kundalini awakenings or the energy that goes with it, I would appreciate any additional insight you might be able to offer.
My Analysis of a Kundalini Awakening
With a Kundalini awakening, I know there’s a death of ego, but also immense self-awareness, which needs to stay balanced. And I’m somewhat aware of the negative consequences of trying to manifest a Kundalini Awakening without preparing myself first, which is why I’ve never tried.
However, I could feel that there was a message waiting for me somewhere and that I needed to search for it.
But how can I find something or learn something new about myself without knowing where to start? Especially when the lesson is not physical, rather spiritual? I don’t know have all the answers, but I what I experienced.
I felt confident, strong, and ready to tackle my day. I felt drawn to the arts, yoga, crafting, and many other ways to heal my mind BEFORE I ever pulled a single card.
Also, later today, I laid down for a nap around 2:00 p.m. but woke up an hour later with a huge…how do I say this…sexual urge. O.K., I was horny, which is not something I normally feel. I’m just not programmed like that, usually.
Could this feeling also be my Kundalini awakening at work? I understand that Kundalini is a feminine energy coiled at the base of my spine, which might explain the heat I felt this morning, but what about my mid-day urge?
Learning about Myself through Kundalini
First, I’m under no false illusion that I know enough about Kundalini awakenings to correctly identify one if it should ever happen to me. But what provoked the consuming energy I felt all over my body this morning, and then again in the afternoon? Was it caused by the sleep I had just finished? A dream that I can’t remember? Or perhaps, the argument I experienced just before going to bed?
My awakening and the energy I felt—Kundalini, or not—felt organic and natural to me. I felt happy to alive and see the sun shining another day.
Perhaps the heat I had felt was a healing energy because I certainly needed to feel healed. And maybe the lesson I needed to learn was forgiveness, which I know often goes hand in hand with the healing process.
In closing, this post is about my Kundalini Awakening in all its glory. I realize that while the effects are similar for most people, sometimes the timing and manifestation of the effects are different. For that reason, this is my story and experience. I’m not looking for judgment or approval, only suggestions about how I can improve on my experience.
How would you interpret the sensations I felt?
What about the lesson I learned about forgiveness?
Please share your constructive comments below.